I can never really be bothered with these things anymore, but as I'm sat at work with not alot else to do I can't see the harm of making an entry!

This year has just been flying by, it doesn't seem like yesterday that it was christmas.

I've found myself a job (at long last) and its good pay for what I'm doing, although its not very stimulating. Allows me alot of free reign though so I can't complain.
Just feels like that I'm sat on my ass for 8 hours a day not really achieving much, but at least I have a means to obtain things in life that I will actually enjoy! Added plus is that the people I work with are great, the only things I would change would make the job more physically and mentally stimulating and not so long hours but hey can't have it all!

It does mean now that I've got money to throw away now, which I seem to be doing successfully.

First thing I did was book my bungee jump for my birthday, I want to start doing more adrenaline pumped activities, so it seems like a good place to start!!
Then I went and booked my next tattoo , which'll put me back around £200 but hopefully it'll be worth it=D
Also went in to get my microdermal piercings put in, sadly though first attempt at putting them in wasn't successful so I'm going in again to get them sorted out as they wern't placed deep enough into the skin =(

Trying to arrange things for my birthday aswell, like the idea of going camping somewhere but the only place that I could think of was Abergavenny but I've got a feeling that transport to there is just going to be to difficult to arrange so am trying to think of somewhere closer to home! Stroud has been mentioned a few times so shall have to look into that as have less then a month to get that sorted!!

Socially things are going well enough, my life seems to revolve around the brunnie at the moment though! Although relationship wise things are just as complicated as normal. Met someone a month ago who to me has everything that I'd find attractive and would want in a relationship but as life is cruel and is not as simple as we'd all like its not happening. We did begin seeing eachother but sadly he's just come out of a 4 1/2 relationship so things fell through as he felt that he couldn't commit himself to anything at this stage after coming out of such a substational relationship so recently. Its fair enough but still my soul dies a little inside. Woe with me HAH.
Perhaps it'll get there someday, until then I shall just have to be patient and enjoy our time together as friends.

Other then that life seems to be dandy, got lots to look forward to and am constantly looking for things to occupy myself with! Just trying to do as much with myself as possible!!
I seem to find happyness in keeping myself busy and not dwelling on things.

...and of course, I jinxed it.

Was the best night that I've had in a long time.
But I don't want to jinx it so I shall say nothing more!

xXx

...I can't say what kind of change, it being a good or bad...
all I can say is that I feel something new is about to begin...
or something known will end.

...went today, was weird being back there again with a different gang, everything looked so fimiliar like I'd been there a thousand times before.

Got a new puppy today too =D

went to see her yesterday and shes gorgeous, a Rottweiler x Collie,
mum said she'd think about it and see about picking her up today

Have a phone call this morning saying she probably wasn't going to get her,
then I walk in the door this evening and she comes bounding down the stairs!

Fitting in perfectley =D


Moved back to gloucester now although alot of my stuff is still back at the flat.
Not looking forward to going back there as Dave is pulling a hissy fit.
Really can't be delealing with it so I've ignored his texts and will go there while hes at work.

Hopefully this christmas will be ok afterall =)

xXx

I believe that I have been too arrogant with my life, I've wanted to get out and do everything at once, I've been very impatient.

So, I have decided to move back in with my mum.
I'm going to finish my car lessons and take my test and get a car.

I shall live life as a 17 year old for once, instead of trying to be 27.

Then, when I'm 18, I'm going to make a decision as to what to do with my life.
I've been reading through the army jobs and theres alot there that really appeals to me.

such as a dog handler!! get to travel the world , also taught how to drive HGV's and Land Rovers with trailers =D

dream job <3

but of course, anything could happen before then, but its something to look forward to.

Oh yes, I shall put the results of the test that I took on the army.jobs.mod website, it was incredibely accurate!!

How I see life now:
"When you can, you indulge your love of music. You may harbour secret dreams of one day becoming a star. Given your choices, action and adventure are big themes for you. You prefer life when you don't know what will happen next... being a daredevil you are tough enough to enter into hazardous situations. Your inquisitive nature leads you to hunt out knowledge and information. Your quest to discover and learn has no bounds. You and your friends tend to hang out wherever you can. You are an active bunch, you enjoy fresh air, and have ambitions to get out and see new places together. You seem to like to take yourself away from the pressures of life. You are quite independent and are well-equipped to deal with most situations you find yourself in. Exercise is part of your daily routine. It’s not something you set time aside for, but your lifestyle choices mean that you keep fit without having to take time out to go to the gym. "

Life in the future:
"Everyone sees you as a contemplative character. You prefer to sit back and observe rather than be the centre of attention. Spirituality is an essential part of your character, you have a strong sense of morals and look for guidance when you are in difficult situations. You learn best from someone who can inspire you with their knowledge. You like to be able to soak up as much information as you can and have respect for someone who knows their subject. You are open and respect others’ opinions, and are confident to engage and listen in group discussions. You're someone who will take the plunge first. You need to find a channel to focus all that energy: taking a risk and remaining in control is a thrill. You see yourself as a total risk taker and you like the attention that it can bring you. You will try anything crazy once... and if you like it you'll do it again. In the next few years you want to be doing more of what you do now. You're not ready for responsibilities yet - you are out to gain experience and have a good time. Satisfaction comes from seeing a job through from start to finish. Your ability to work towards planned and structured goals will get you far. Employers would appreciate your commitment to seeing a project through to completion. It’s good to know you can rely on the unconditional love your best friend gives you. You can trust them to lend a listening ear and support when you need it. Being a bit of an thrill-seeker, freedom equates to getting your adrenalin pumping... feeling that buzz makes you feel alive. There’s a part of you that’s keen to escape to un-chartered territory. The mystery of the unknown is appealing to you, and with your inquisitive nature, who knows where your next adventure will lead you? "

=]

xXx

..as these past few months have been character building.

.. and I can't wait to move into my new flat in cheltenham =]
.. making new friends =]
.. getting a new job.. hopefully something to do with animals.. and good pay!!
.. starting a fresh =]

I'll miss...
.. my Flynn.. I think I'm going to cry when I know I won't be seeing him everyday..
.. my room! hah, sad I know.. but I've put alot into this room and there are alot of memories on these walls..
.. having the easiest job in the world! haha...

x

The weekend.
Friday going to bristol for a gig =D
Staying over night and then probs going to bristol zoo on saturday =D

Then in sept going to stay in Cardiff for the weekend =D
Tattoo convention!
Can't wait!


xx

Blahedy blah blah blah blah.



WHEN I LOSE THE ABILITY TO LAUGH, TAKE ME TO MY END